Showing posts with label Imagined series. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Imagined series. Show all posts

18.6.08

Lives on Trains - 7

"...And that's why I'm so happy, and they're not."
"Because you....suck the joy out from their souls..."
"Yep"
"And you can do that because you're really a....god?"
"No less."
"A god."
"Had it the first time."
"A train god."
"Nail. Head."
"And you hate everyone who travels by trains because they use them?"
"You really are good at this!"
"Ahh.
Right.
.....so why are you telling me this?"
"Weeeeeell, anybody who reads Winnie-the-Pooh can't be all that bad".

12.6.08

Lives on Trains - 6

She watched the empty bottle rolling around the floor, being jerked around incessantly by the interplay of momentum, direction and resistance. After a while, she began trying to predict which way it would go next, but the bottle almost always confounded her with its wild and rapid changes.

She waited for a long time, but nobody claimed it for their own, and neither did anybody pick it up and put it somewhere safe. The bottle continued its sad little dance, forced to go wherever the fates decreed, till finally a young boy stomped down on it and ended its misery.

* * * * * * * * * * *

Much later, she realised she had been watching the story of her recent life - tossed around by intangible forces that took her wherever they pleased; discarded by those who no longer felt she was useful to them; with nobody around to help pick her up and give her at least a few moments of stability.

She wondered what, eventually, would crush her too.

5.6.08

Lives on Trains - 5

He waited for the train to arrive, trying to decide where to sit today.

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He took a new seat every day, moving around within and through the carriages, always selecting one that had at least one other person sitting across or besides him.

He would then remove the book.

The trick was to get it out in a way that made it seem as if he was trying to be inconspicuous in an embarassed sort of way, but was failing to do so. The almost-but-not-quite-casual looking around, the fumbling and sliding out of the book from the bag, the attempt to open it to the correct page while trying to hide the cover - inevitably, someone would be piqued (and nosy) enough to try and see what the title was.

He watched their reflections to capture every detail of their reactions. The scorn, the amusement, the derision, the outrage, the rejecting disinterest, the spark of mutual interest, the mental bookmark on "To Read" lists, the surreptious hiding of their own material, the smug raising up of their book to make the title quite visible.

The judging of him.

Always hopelessly off the mark, of course. Although...there was that one time, when that middle-aged woman (a tabloid in her hands) had looked up at him with a slight smile and a nod, recognising another tease who got their thrills by laughing at the gullibility of people's assumptions.

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As the train pulled in, he checked his bag, making sure the copy of Winne-the-Pooh was safe.

14.2.08

Lives On Trains - 4

This is a cheating a little, but inspiration has been losing out to sloth this week. So, here's one's first Urf.

PS. This was not a deliberate anti-V post. One couldn't care two grapes about V's-day.

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She noticed him for the first time on a Wednesday, standing in the line to get tickets. She remembered the day, because it was the same day she started going to the gym. She took it as a sign, visualising Fate standing next to him with one of those big arrow-pointing placards that said “This could be yours”. Yes, she would quite happy for him to be hers. All scrumptious as he was, especially with that slightly I-may-be-wearing-a-banker’s-suit-but-I-could-do-with-a-little-nurturing look. Oh yes, wouldn’t she like to nurture him.

He had gotten into the same carriage as hers, and was still sitting when her stop came. Probably asking for too much for him to be getting off where she did. Still, at least he took the same train daily, sitting in the same carriage. She took that as another sign of their compatibility, sitting in the carriage that would stop closest to the exit. Foresight and planning, that’s what it showed. She liked that in him. And she liked him, especially when she got a closer look, which was easy to arrange. It wasn’t as if they were assigned seats numbers. And wasn't it probable that she had always taken the seat diagonally opposite his because she liked it, and it was her regular place? Yes, of course it was. And it was her regular place now, what with him sitting there looking just so yummy. Like an extra-chocolatey brownie. Mmmmmmm.

She found out which train he returned by, through a simple matter of getting on every train over a two hour period in the evenings. Even if that meant staying back later at work to co-ordinate with his schedule. Although that wasn’t too bad, as it made her appear more “diligent” and “eager” to her bosses. And he probably thought the same too. It was just enough to balance having to go home in the dark, and bundle up even more against the cold. Not that she wasn’t used to the winters here, but she was no weather-braving junkie. Cardigan, jacket, scarf, hat, gloves - these were necessities, not accessories. Even he thought the same, otherwise why had she never seen him remove his gloves even while in the train? There, another thing they both agreed on. Covering up was sensible. Although she wouldn’t mind seeing him with just a little less on. And spent quite a few hours imagining - and waiting - for summer to come so that he could discard some of them. Or letting her discard them for him. She would be more than happy to warm him up if he felt cold.

And days passed, and she continued going to the gym. Even though it meant she trained later in the evening, and often felt like giving up after a particularly long day at work, she kept herself motivated by thinking of his admiring glances as he noticed her svelte(ish) new figure. And she was sure he was noticing, catching him occasionally glancing at her through the reflection in the window. She knew she looked better, despite all the heavy layers that she was still forced to wear. And he had started looking better too, after he took up cycling to the station. Even if it meant his hair got grooves in them because of his helmet, and that he was more bundled up. She could live with that - she didn’t want him to get a cold or worse. But she did wish for the weather to get warmer, especially if that meant he would (hopefully) wear cycling pants. Those tight ones. Oh no, she didn’t mind him being athletic in the least.

And then, she took a trip. Two whole weeks. She was glad that it was busy enough to let her not dream about him too much, although she did get a few amused stares at times due to her occasional distractedness. And she kept herself going by pointing out that the weather would have warmed up enough for both of them to be able to shed those bulky outers. Not that she wanted to flaunt herself or ogle at him. She wasn’t cheap. But a casual display of one’s vim-and-vigour figure, and a discreet appraisal of another’s similar body - that was quite acceptable. And how she longed to appraise him.

The night before the day she returned to work, she dithered over what she would wear. She eventually plumped for something classy, yet slightly I-wouldnt-quite-turn-down-a-pickup-line. Black skirt, hemmed in dark red, just knee-length (her thighs still needed a little toning). The dark turquoise top. Heels, but not the high ones. And no hat, and no gloves. The warm snap would allow that. That done, she wondered what he would wear.

When she saw him the next morning, she got her answer in vivid detail. Cycling trousers. A light, snug jacket. No gloves. And a platinum ring. Third finger, left hand.

She didn’t reject the chocolate cookies a colleague passed round at work that day.

21.1.08

Lives On Trains - 3

I watch
you,
as you smile while looking
at him,
as he sneaks glances through the window
at her,
while she tries to pretty up while ignoring
them,
who with the assurance of collective youth, smirk
at us.

It must be another
Monday,
for everyone is watching
each other,
while the light creeps over the wet world, noticed by
nobody.

18.6.07

Lives On Trains - 2

She sat there, quiet. She noticed the regular stranger take a seat opposite. And the few quick glances darted her way.

The stranger considered the moisture leaking from titian eyes in a puffy face. and wondered where her laughter-sharing friend was. or whether she had had a fight at home before leaving. or if she had been taunted because of the country she came from (or rather, didn't). or if it was one of those professional problems. And chose to give it a minute more, before deciding whether it would be a disaster to lean over and ask if she was ok.

She felt another yawn come on, and afterwards, wiped away the water that squeezed out when her eyes were scrunched up. She wished she hadn't slept so late.

23.4.07

Lives On Trains - 1

A dreamy grey day, dawning on pre-tired people.

And a loud peal of unabashed laughter burst forth, and kept on flowing. Interspersed with staccato lines, and funny noises.

As two friends, so-not-from-this-country, went off to their duties with a cheerfulness alien to the rest of the travellers. Who frowned with disdainful condescension at this unwarranted irritation while they grumpily prepared to stump through the day.

And he caught himself starting to get irked, starting to wonder why they could not understand that others might be sleepy or tired, starting to decide whether to tell them that not everyone likes noise in the morning and could they please hush...
when he listened to the laughter.

And feeling joy for the fact that someone was happy, settled back with a smile of his own. And could not understand why everybody else had little frowns, and puckered lips, and sullen eyes.